Another cycle...

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I know I am not the only one who goes through Alopecia but it still doesn't help when I see a bunch of skin patches after a shower.  Today felt the worse for some unknown reason.  Oh yeah, I remember... I wanted to try to part my hair in a different way and it looked worse than before.  I guess it is time to break out the scarves.  Good thing that it is getting colder for hat weather too!

Not mine but I have patches like this all over my head
Another curiosity that plagues me is when I do my volunteer thing on Wednesday.  I know I will be working in a hospital setting and the focal points will be on the newborns but there is that wondering feeling in the back of my mind that someone is pointing and staring like I have a big green bug on me.  I know this is probably an exaggeration but it is so difficult to deal with this at times.  Sometimes I wish either it stays or all goes away.  This partial stuff sucks!

Yeah I know I should be grateful for what I have and I am.  Today is one of those days that my hair loss really gets to me, emotionally.  I really wish I had the courage to buzz it all off but I know if I did, all the 'dents' from the cortisone shots would really show through.  Plus now, my flare ups are bad causing sores (AKA lesions) and they itch like mad.  I do have 3 wigs (brown, reddish, and blonde) with different styles.

I guess today is just a bad day (and not only talking about hair).  I guess one takes the good with the bad.

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