Results from biopsy - oncologist

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Dr Hanna, my oncologist called me last night and confirmed that I do have cancer.  When he told me, I felt numb and still do this morning.  I just don't know what to say or do. I haven't mourned about this new development in my life since I don't think it has been processed.  I know it has made me more cynical an enraged.  I seriously want to shut myself up and say 'fuck it all'.  Why bother?  Whatever you do to try to be healthy doesn't matter. Just seriously pissed off...

So anyways, I am going to do blood work today and when we get back from camping, I have to set up for a CT. Going to see if I can set it up when I am getting my blood drawn.  And the sprinkles on the cake is that I am still spotting from the biopsy.  REALLY?!  Seriously thinking about making an appointment with my GP and go on xanax.  I just don't want to feel anymore...

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